Part of my life..

I’ve been evicted, erase me from the face of the planet
Cause your world got my outlook damaged
My minds stuck inside a cycle of depression
The reflection
Can you feel me?
Look in the mirror, tell me do you see clearly?
They have it shattered and cracked, it’s so crazy
My minds stuck inside a cycle of depression
The reflection

Listen, I can make the crows talk
And have you jumping out a twenty story building
And come crashing on the sidewalk
You can see it in my eyes cause I never blink
And I can read it on your mind every time you think
I’m the sick side of circling spells
And I’m surrounded for the secrets of…
All the writings on the walls in the cave described us
To decapitate the heads of the people who broke trust
Beyond the nonbelieving
Unforgiven by the sacraments of sin
All the way from the beginning
I keep spinning
Good versus evil, who’s winning?
My mind state taking a beating and still grinning
Underground and I’m buried alive
I’m resurrected and reflected through the Juggalo eyes
This ain’t no fucking disguise
This is the way that I look
And it will all be explained in the book

I gotta find peace of mind
I know another cord…
I gotta find peace of mind
See, this what that voice in your head says
When you try to get peace of mind…
I gotta find peace of mind, I gotta find peace of mind
sHe says it’s impossible, but I know it’s possible
sHe says it’s impossible, but I know it’s possible
sHe says there’s no me without him, please help me forget about him
sHe takes all my energy, trapped in my memory
Constantly holding me, constantly holding me
I need to tell you all, all the pain she’s caused, mmmm
I need to tell I’m, I’m undone because, mmmm
sHe says it’s impossible, but I know it’s possible
sHe says it’s impossible without him, but I know it’s possible
To finally be in love, and know the real meaning of
A lasting relationship, not based on ownership
I trust every part of you, cuz all that I… All that you say you do
You love me despite myself, sometimes I fight myself
I just can’t believe that you, would have anything to do
With someone so insecure, someone so immature
Oh you inspire me, to be the higher me
You made my desire pure, you made my desire pure
Just tell me what to say, I can’t find the words to say
Please don’t be mad with me, I have no identity
All that I’ve known is gone, all I was building on
I don’t wanna walk with you, how do I talk to you
Touch my mouth with your hands, touch my mouth with your hands
Oh I wanna understand, the meaning of your embrace
I know now I have to face, the temptations of my past
Please don’t let me disgrace, where my devotion lays
Now that I know the truth, now that it’s no excuse
Keeping me from your love, what was I thinking of?
Holding me from your love, what was I thinking of?
You are my peace of mind, that old me is left behind
You are my peace of mind, that old me is left behind
He says it’s impossible, but I know it’s possible
He says it’s improbable, but I know it’s tangeable
He says it’s not grabbable, but I know it’s haveable
Cuz anything’s possible, oh anything is possible
Please come free my mind, please come meet my mind
Can you see my mind, oh
Won’t you come free my mind?
Oh I know it’s possible
Anything, anything, anything, anything, anything, yeeey
Anything, anything, anything, anything, yeeey
Anything, anything, anything, anything, anything, yeeey
Oh free! Free, free, free your mind
Free, free your mind… free, free your mind
Free, free, free, free your mind
Oh, it’s so possible, oh it’s so possible
I’m telling you it’s possible, I’m telling you it’s possible
Free, free… free, free… free, free… get free now
Free, free… free, free, free, free… free, free
You’re my peace of mind, that old me is left behind
You’re my peace of mind, you’re my peace of mind
sHe’s my peace of mind, she’s my peace of mind
sHe’s my peace of mind, she’s my peace of mind
What a joy it is to be alive
To get another chance, yeah
Everyday’s another chance
To get it right this time
Everyday’s another chance
Oh what a merciful, merciful, merciful God
Oh what a wonderful, wonderful, wonderful God

Mungkin masaku telah berlalu mungkin hati ku tak berbentuk lagi…rasa ini takkan terubati..tetapi mati takkan mengubati..Ku menatap langit yang tenang dan takkan menangisi malam.. ku tetap berdiri ku melawan hari aku akan bererti ku takkan mati…

p/s: me at sempadan indonesia-sarawak…

alhamdulillah.. already downloaded full season of dawson’s creek of season1..it’s great series..for teens n youth,it’s a great drama’s..now im continue 4 season 2..really2x tired..last friday me n my family traveled to sarawak..juz for cuti2 malaysia..we went to sekirin,kampung boyan,pasar satok,water front and other 1 or 2 places we went n buy sumthin’ or souvenir for fwens..but i dunno what i want to buy for my self…cerewet sgt..so juz buy sum kain samarinda n t shirts..but still not satisfied..xpelar..thus writin’ dis arc pun ,i’m still sleepy..so better i go to sleep..wah2..penat owh..nak ngorok jap..n membobos..

Alhamdulillah..rite now,we in hajr season..all haji n hajja soon working for them selves to give n get the best pray to Allah at makka..more than 3 million at tanah haram..at the day of Aidil Adha,all congretation doing uquf at padang arafah..alhamdulillah..they still have energy to fight for our own for completing the hajr..haih..at least they know what they doing..haih…. i still dunno.. why  i have my motorcycle..my bloody own motorcycle..n  soon i will have my own car with own bloody money from my savings..but..why every week.. i go back home with komuter..why ar?…bukan kufur nikmat or sumthing definition like that..but entahler..but why ar..astaghfirullah..

suatu hari aku bertanyer pada kawanku.."haritu aku hadiahkan ko Quran, ko bace tak?".. "bace" .."mane alQuran tu?" "ade kat rumah family.aku simpan baik2 dalam almari".. "buat ape simpan kat sane?"  takut koyak,kotor ke ..takut2 budak rumah pinjam tak jage..".. " weh,ko dengar cini..jiwa ku lagi tenang dan bangga kalau Quran tu terkoyak semase ko bace dan hatiku aku gembira kalau Quran tu sekiranye terkoyak lagi walaupun orang lain bace dan cube faham kan..itu adlah lebih baik dari simpan cantik2 tapi hanye buka nak ko balik rumah atau ko simpan dan tak buka2 dan simpan kat rumah kerana takut koyak..kenape aku ckp mcm tuh?..kerna..mendengar orang bace Quran pun dah byk ganjarannyer..inikan pula membaca untuk diri sendiri..untuk dapat kan ketenangan..apatah lagi memberi pinjam kepada orang lain..so,berape banyak ganjaran dariNya kau dapat hanye kerana sbuah kitab Al-Quran?.. - true story..from sumone where his love has been demolished..

aku tak mengerti ape yang ku rasa rindu yang tak pernah begitu hebatnya aku mencintai mu lebih dri yang kau tahu meski kau x kan pernah tahu.. aku persembahkan hidup ku untuk mu.. telah ku relakan hatiku pada mu.. namun kau masih bisu diam seribu bahasa..dan hati kecilku bicara.. baru ku sedari..cintaku bertepuk sebelah tangan..kau buat remuk seluruh hati ku..dan kau puaskan kan..biarkan aku…sendirian..sesungguhnya aku redha..Ya Allah…